Dear Lord

You are so incredibly awesome.  And I feel horrible for feeling like this.  For allowing envy to have any place in my life when You have provided so much.  Thank you so much for providing the house that we need and want.  I know that you will provide a way for all of our other needs to be met.

Father God, thank you for bringing this baby safely into the world.  Thank you for keeping her mommy safe too.   I pray that she will be a blessing to all who know her and that she will know her older siblings.

Lord, please remove this hurt and jealousy.  I want another baby of my own so badly.  I want to be a wife again.  I want to be a help meet and I want my children to have a real daddy.  And, God, it hurts so much to watch somebody else with the life that I had.

I don’t want to influence anybody negatively.  I understand and encourage his family to support him and get to know her…but, sometimes, it is still painful.

Lord, right now I am reminded of Your Word.  2 Corinthians 12:9 says “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weakness so that Christ’s power may rest on me.”

Thank you, Father.  Thank you for seeing me and meeting me where I am.  Thank you for allowing me to be weak so that You can be strong.  Lord, I pray now that Your grace would be sufficient.

In Your Name – Amen!